what been goin' on . . . ?

Life has its ups and downs right now.
Although Jon and I are doing real awsome.
We got in a fight a few days ago
and its only seem to make things better.
Although at first I thought differently.
Spent alot of time with Jason while Jon and I faught.
He's doing real good. Still the same ol' Jason.
Thats what got me though. I HAVE CHANGED!
Jason almost got to me, I enjoyed hanging out with him,
but I think I know that will never work again.
Anyways . . . thanks Jason, for being a good friend
and looking out for me. I love ya 4 it.

Dollie and I get along
but I honestly feel that we try to avoid each other.
But I honestly think that its best that way.
Thats about the only way we get along.
She drives me nutts sometimes. For example:
My landlord doesn't want us to have any dogs,
yet . . . he let us get Zoey while carla lived with us.
But we ARE NOT tohave her in the house.
Now Dollie has 3 of her dogs with us (plus mine makes 4)
Rex (the landlord) wants either us or the dogs gone.
My family doesn't have the money to pay for a place
with four bedrooms other than the one we have now.
Thats $500 a month. A two bedroom appartment
that will exept our income costs that much. (my daddy makes decent money)
but can't afford more than the $500.
Two bedrooms isn't enough room for the four of us.
Then count Dollie! Yeah!
Anyways back tomy point . . .
Dollie says she's not getting ride of her dogs.
That she would kill them and herself first.
So, the way I see it her dogs are more important
then us (the people who gave her their home.)
She says "but I raised these girls. . . "
(the "girls" are her dogs) "they're my babies"
Well news flash!!! MY DAD RAISED US,
and we're REALLY HIS babies.
He was part of the making. Not just the birthing.
If my dad puts us outside it becomes an abuse issue,
then we live with people we DON'T know.
Now how selfish am I being?
I'd really like for everyone to be honest.

because when I think about it.
I think Dollie is being selfish.
We give her a home and she puts us on the streets over some
FUCKEN DOGS!
let me tell you, if she reads this, and she might, she'd be really mad.
But I write this hopeing maybe it will knock some sence in her.
I actually think that daddy should look into getting another place,
Because I see us on the streets soon.
BUT JUST A PLACE BIG ENOUGH FOR THE FOUR OF US!
no worries about the fith party because they haven't been so thankful either.

I give up my bedroom for them, Run places for them, and cook over 50% of there dinners.
And get NOTHING back. This from the person who said they were their to help cook, clean, and run places.
HA!
sure had us fooled didn't she!?
Daddy and I have done everything we could for her and not only do we not get anything in return we fined people in our house that we don't want there, people who aren't welcome there because they couldn't respect my family and our rules. As far as I'm conserned whether she lives there or not. THEY ARE STILL NOT WELCOME. Daddy feels the same too but doesn't feels its fare to not let her see them. I think she can see them somewhere besides MY house.

And if she thinks that me or MY boyfriend will be doing anymore "heavy lifting" WE WON'T!
Jon trys his best to help her with a piano. he does what SHE tells him to with it. Now the city is going to fine her if they have to haul it off the side of the street. She has this crazy idea that if MY boyfriend doesn't move it he owes her the money they fine her. NOPE! He's off his ass looking for a job and doing what he can for friends and family to make a little money here and there to get by. But the thing is everytime he or i do something for her. haul something, pick up something , drop something off, or whatever, no only does she not give us a little money, we hardly get a thank you.
So we do something nice, we get JACK!
no thank yous, no gas money for going out of our way, and no money for doing something for her THAT SHE SHOULD HAVE DONE HERSELF!

Well thats out. EVERYTHING Dollie has done (recently) to tick me off or irritate me is right there.

Like I said before everythings going real good. HA! Between me and everyone, but Dollie, it is!
Me and daddy are doing great.
Me and Jon.
Jason and I.
Cait and me.
Bj's getting alone with me great!
Even mom and I (who doen't get to talk often) are doing better then we ever have since she's been gone.
Dollie and I PRETEND to get along.
end of story!
love to all,
Chandra